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Ghost by ladyshadowrage, literature

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Ghost

I give to you, all of me, openly, Prying back ribs and chest cavity. Vital organ bare for you to see, Your name tattooed among the families. Like a pagan sacrifice I yield, On my knees pledging to become, Your sword, your shield, To fealty, loyalty I succumb. I’ve bled for you, a peasant I remain. A servant to be discarded at whim. What will it take? Shall I open a vein? I’m drowning in blood too thick too swim. I’ll never be loved like I wanted, Commited to you both, I’ve bonded. Her name follows me like I’m haunted, Faced with my hearts desire I can’t be undaunted. She hangs like a halo over my head, The reason I can’t win I should’ve retreated, I’ve been misled. Judged, convicted, not being her is my sin.

Monster by ladyshadowrage, literature

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Monster

Monster I tried to make you feel safe  promising to keep you from harm. I swore to patrol the upstairs halls armed with monster repellent charms. I came running when I heard you scream  Opening closets & checking under beds. Told you I’m the biggest & the baddest, And I’d eat the monsters instead. You trusted me, believe me As I soothed your fears.  I thought the lesson stuck  Thought you knew I’d always be here. I’d lay down my life for you Protect you with my last breath. if only you knew what I’ve done for you  There’s nothing I wouldn’t do even death. I cannot protect you from this Somehow I didn’t prepare. My heart is broken & I am surprised  For I am the monster in your eyes.

Soul in Pain by ladyshadowrage, literature

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Soul in Pain

Time, shaken, fast forward A blurred heartbeat of memories You’re not in a single one. You linger in a melody In the deep recess of a dream. You’ve become a ghost Whose still alive What voodoo have you Conjured up from your bloodline? The wind whispers your well wishes In a drawl so eerily familiar. It’s been forever and a day How do you drown me In yesterdays From yesteryears I’ve already escaped? No matter how I try I can’t forget your face….

In My Childrens Eyes by ladyshadowrage, literature

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In My Childrens Eyes

I can do no right All I am is wrong Give them my all The put up more walls In My Children’s Eyes Threats, Fists of Violence It’s conversations norms Only way I know peace Is giving in, they walk over me In My Children’s Eyes All I do is love them Try to teach them wrong & right All they do is fight me Yelling that they’re always right In My Children’s Eyes I’m tire of the battles The tears that never cease I’ve lost the pride of a mother I’m in a prison, there’s no escape In My Children’s Eyes

Gold by ladyshadowrage, literature

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Gold

GOLD There’s a lighter out there somewhere With a reflection of who I used to be. She’s traveled different roads than I have Wonder if she’d even recognize me? Out there in the shadows of the spotlight With the last verse at closing time Though never in the audience I still hear every word in my mind. Does she feel my presence In the afterburn glow? My voice carries on the wind The words, you already know. Leaning into the bite Still no safe word. Grinning around my cigarette I’m never gonna say no. Yeah somewhere out there is a lighter With my name in Onyx bold Though I’m standing in the shadows Everyone

Catalyst by ladyshadowrage, literature

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Catalyst

Suffering in absolute silence Hate breeding, edge of violence. Ears closed to desperate pleas Snarling rage, just let me be. No tears pool, no drops fall Strike a match to burn it all. Hands falter with rush of memories Bittersweet i smile sadly at the scenes. No words to egg me nor beg me stay Mildly curious gaze as I walk away. Fire licks fingertips with a flick its no longer dangerous. Filled with anger, none to blame I alone hold all the shame. The denominator of pain The catalyst always stains. Head held high, trailing flames I move on for there is no other way.

Legend by ladyshadowrage, literature

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Legend

Thinking back to 27 wild and untamed Upon town lips My name was sang. Drinking whiskey from A gallon tea jug On the highway Going 100+. Covered in snow In the middle of June Yelling free bird When the band cued. Hops and barley Flowing through my veins The blues of my eyes Drowning under the strain. A different bar Every night to play the same A new group of prospects To set the stage To a sea of randoms I show the rage. Musical motorcycles My favorite game. I'm alive at mostly 37 I've been rage since 11 Tame for the most part I'll still die a legend.

The Hole In Me by ladyshadowrage, literature

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The Hole In Me

Whispers heard on backs of whippoorwills Carried across the ears of mourners Dirt falls silently from shovels as the dead are laid to rest Fearsome lovers, Fearless Fates, softly the tears fall, softly the hearts break, the rhythm of life without them, shudders at the slower pace. Gone to rest too soon, too soon, The final fall of dirt proof of end. The sound of birds and melodies of flowers sing “I miss you my beloved, my forever darling.” The echo of silence, the sound Oh the sound of mine heart breaking. Gone down to one where once there were two You were buried and my heart died with you. The hole in the ground Filled more

My King by ladyshadowrage, literature

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My King

A ghost of this feeling Had me mimicing motions For far longer than I should. Pride burst forth with love The connection, our bond, repaired in an instant And I can breathe once more. It's been gone so long I feared never would it return. I want to cry in relief I want to laugh with joy. With one gesture you've shown That I mean the world to you. You dusted off my throne Placed my heart back in its home. I don't need to be the center Of your universe, Just the axis on which it turns. You hand me my crown Together we watch The match unfold.

Jumbled by ladyshadowrage, literature

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Jumbled

I love you still and it eats at me every single day. I feel like I'm living someone else's life it's a great life but it doesn't feel like mine. It doesn't fit, like you did. And I miss you! Every time I breathe out, I bite my tongue so your name doesn't escape. It's been years dammit why can't I have a reprieve? I haven't even seen you in all this time but it's like I've never left your side. I'm happy but A huge part of me is missing and how can I ever be ok without you?

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The Real Title by shep4life, literature

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The Real Title

The Real Title ( A child's lament ) 5/20/17 I was always under the impression that it mattered what I felt. And yet you have covered my face in shame. My feelings are tattered. I drink to hide my pain. My family would shout and cry. I will lie and lie and lie. How can I explain? How can I complain? My brain is not right. My shadows refuse to see light. My dad died before I was born. His legacy will be so much better than mine. The expectation is mighty high. I can't compete with this guy. Do you know the pressure you put upon me? Do you realize what you want me to be? I will fulfill some secret life. I will cut through with this silve

Clown Town by shep4life, literature

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Clown Town

Clown Town 9/6/2017 Show me your face. It won't be seen. The makeup you can erase. If you have been where I've been. Are you down with the clown? Do you see the smile that frowns? Do you feel the depth of this town? If he is deserving does he claim a crown? He hides the face that shows us all. The clown is bright and ready to fall. For that is the plight of a joke. That is gagging as he chokes This town bleeds a fomented face. She dreams of a perfect place. The dream ends and she is still. The hesitates but takes the pill.

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You Never Buy Me Flowers by ladyshadowrage, literature

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You Never Buy Me Flowers

When you come home after a hard day's work, there's a plate on the counter and food on the stove. Your favorite bottle is chilling in a bucket of ice; as you relax in your Lazy Boy, I think, "isn't that nice?" You never buy me flowers While you watch a movie or go to play Xbox I'm standing in the kitchen, elbows deep in dishes. When you say you're tired and you're taking a nap, my arms are overflowing with the laundry stack. You never buy me flowers After you awaken you want a shoulder rub; I put down the broom and attend to you at once. Then you go to shower and find a shirt needs sewn; once the tear is mended tomorrow's lunch must be

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Blood and Tears by ladyshadowrage, literature

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Blood and Tears

I've got scars and Many two way streets of broken hearts, I'm just a shell of a woman I'll be labeled till I die. I've seen hell and death And blood and tears And yeah i've caused them all One time.... I may have lost myself But I'm still me. Drowning in myself But I'm still me. Sometimes I hate myself But I'm still me. I want to crawl inside myself But i'll still be me. I look in your eyes And see my torment reflecting back at me. Sometimes it seems that you're Exactly me. You've walked the road I've been painting And it gives me hope, As your still here to tell the tale You say it's all you wrote. I may have lost m

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Artist // Professional // Literature

July 23, 1982
United States
Deviant for 15 years
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Corissa Neil
Artist | Professional | Literature
United States

I'm Native American, over half Blackfoot with some Cherokee also mixed in. I carry pen and paper everywhere for I always have ideas when I'm out and about. I have five children, three I gave birth too and two I might as well have. :D I'm blessed to have found my soul mate after many many failures. I love music, there's not a single day that passes without me listening to at least three hours of music. I have had my poetry published multiple times in books, magazines and on the internet but my single most claim to fame is that I have a book published It's called Ziron, my webcam image on the left side shows it's cover. I'm pretty badass at Call of Duty for Xbox! I'm covered in tattoos and I plan on getting more. I'm an amateur tattoo artist.

Around dA I run LyricsRus

Current Residence: Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania
Favourite genre of music: Country, R&B, Blues
Shell of choice: The one I reside in
Skin of choice: The skin I wear
Favourite cartoon character: Calvin and Hobbs
Personal Quote: ~Be Water~

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Favourite Visual Artist

Leonardo Da Vinci

Favourite Movies

Serenity, Twilight, The Ref, Rat Race, Fast&Furous, Tripple X, Chronicles of Riddick, Tombstone, Rio Bravo, Young Guns

Favourite TV Shows

SONS OF ANARCHY, Once Upon A Time, Resurecction, Revolution

Favourite Bands / Musical Artists

Johnny Cash, Shawn Mullins, Eminem, Serena Ryder, Liz Phair

Favourite Books

The Catcher in the Rye~ J.D. Salinger, Louis l'mour ~Reilly's Luck, Richard Bach ~Illusions:Confessions of a Reluctant Messsiah

Favourite Writers

Dylan Thomas, Ernest Hemmingway, Alfred Tennyson, Edgar Allen Poe, Sir Arthur Conan Doyle

Favourite Games

Zelda, COD, MW3, Civilization, Diablo 3, Minecraft, Final Fantasy Tactics, Dynasty Tactics

Favourite Gaming Platform

Xbox 360

Tools of the Trade

Pen, Paper, Pencil, keyboard, My mind

Other Interests

Writing, Music, Movies, Friends, Xbox< MY KIDS

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ladyshadowrage

May 13, 2019

May 2019

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It's been so long since I've been here and even when I was I was a ghost. Showing up long enough to post and run.  I want to come back,  to write daily again,.  Its a struggle but I hope I win the battle.  For now my lovelies I'll say Hello and goodbye again for now.  

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ladyshadowrage

Nov 27, 2016

It's beyond okay

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I'm not okay, Everything is not alright, There's nothing else to add Words can't express the pain.

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ladyshadowrage

Aug 26, 2015

My Daughter Joined dA

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MY 14 year old daughter joined dA, you can find her here DJ-Pikachu (https://www.deviantart.com/dj-pikachu) She is a pretty good artist for her age and considering she never received any schooling for it. She loves anime with a passion so that is pretty much all she draws. Anyways check her out, give her a llama. :Love:

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xfillernamex

Mar 18, 2017

omg your personal quote..... quoting bruce lee, or cowboy bebop's quote of bruce lee?
www.youtube.com/watch?v=zVWVPa…

ladyshadowrage

Jun 14, 2018

_{Bruce Lee....I know who Cowboy Bebop is but I only ever watched one episode way back when.}

PoetryOD

Aug 26, 2015

_Hey!

_{I wanted to drop by personally to say thanks for joining TheWritePlace! I’m excited that people seem enthusiastic about it If you wanna know more about our group check out Our Rules (there aren’t many and they’re all mostly common sense to me!) or just ask! If you fancy getting more involved we do have positions open which you can find out about here. For now I hope you enjoy the group and find it helpful. If you have ideas on how to make it more useful, suggestions, feedback, anything, just let us know - and when our chatroom #TheWritePlace officially launches (soon) I hope to see you in there too}