literature

I hate myself

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You propped me up
I toppled us down.
You were right to be wary
I swear I never meant for any
Of this.
It's so hard to pick up
Attempt to write.
I play familiar songs
To get lost.
Drown in memories
Cry my heart out.
But,
Your still there
Right where it hurts me most.

....When I think about all the things I did
I hate myself
....When I think about the things we've said
I hate myself
....As I lie here on my bed
I hate myself
....After everything we did
I hate myself

You always expected the worse
I guess that's what you got.
You don't care that you were wrong
With what you thought.
I'm dying from betrayal
And you don't know.
You knew I loved you
But what is love?
Just a desire to fuck
Things up.
I was true
But you could never see.
Why oh why,
Did I get involved,
With someone jaded as me?
We were doomed to fall.


....She's waiting for you at home
I hate myself
....I'm in hell imagining her with you
I hate myself
....You led me on so easily
I hate myself
....She said and you agree I'm bad news
I hate myself


I never matter to you
What you did me.
You were all I wanted
You never wanted me.
Now your gone
But I'm still not free.
Every memory
Won't leave me be.
I want to die
But I'm scared to go.
I wish you knew
What i know.
You were the only one
Why didn't you believe it so?

....I still think of you all the time
I hate myself
....Your the only thing on my mind
I hate myself
....I believed you when you said you were into me
I hate myself
....You showed me I was nothing special after all
I hate myself

I hate myself
Should be you.
I hate myself
You were never true.
I hate myself
I should have listened to what you didn't say.
I hate myself
Alone again, stay this way.
Different style for me, not much rhyming. More a bleeding out of the heart. I guess it's a form of a song. Like it not I don't care.
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